Rebound

I want my blog to be an account of all my dating mishaps and failures, this is one of them.  Thank goodness for the monumental amount of snow DC received, or I wouldn’t of had time to think this out throughly.  I am pretty famous for my hilarious letters to people, thus enjoy Mr. Margarita’s letter!  Yes I did this a week before V-day, how very smart of me..

“Mr. Margaritas, my strongest mode of expression is through written words thus since I have obviously failed in explaining myself thoroughly to you verbally, I thought this was the best way to convey some issues I have been having lately with this relationship.

Mr.Margaritas you are a nice guy, you don’t like hurting people’s feelings, but sometimes physical, non-verbal actions speak far louder than our own words.  You just don’t  seem like you want to be emotionally attached to  anyone at this point, well not me at least.  I am not daft.  I have tried many times to become closer physically, yet you push me off or are extremely awkward/uncomfortable; brushing off the issue with a joke.   I thought at first it was because you were shy or very modest, but it’s been a few months now.  You don’t like or want to kiss me and that hurts me.  Screaming to me, I must have low self-esteem if I keep allowing these string of events to happen.

I could be totally reaching in the dark here, but maybe you just don’t like me that much?  I am purely a rebound person  from your last relationship.  Possibly you still have feelings for her(you hardly talk about her), 3 years is quite a long time to be with someone you cared about.  Personally I think it takes a while to get over someone, it’s hard.  I know that.  Sometimes physically we could be ready to move on, but our minds have yet to catch up with our bodies.

I apologize if I am physco analyzing here, but I am trying so very hard to figure out your intentions.

I know my own intentions pretty clearly.  I know for a fact I can’t keep up a “friends with benefits” package with you, never ends well, and openly speaking I want something more.  I want a relationship with a potential future with someone.  I might be busy, but if I care for someone, I don’t mind at all making time for them.  Work and school can be lonely and unfulfilling by themselves; I just want to be in a relationship with another, who can help that work day or week go by a little bit smoother/ make a little bit brighter.  A person who will be there for me and I will be there for them, to have someone there to listen to you at the end of the day.  It’s a mutual feeling, can’t be one sided, both people should be enthusiastic for one another and want to know each other deeper.  Cliché I know.

Mr. Margaritas  you rarely ask me questions about myself and when I try to inquire about your own life and such, you just laugh at me, skirt the question with a joke or haphazard comment.

After 4 months I don’t think you really know anything about me and I you, or at least that’s the way it feels to me.

I don’t know about you, but since I started dating you, I haven’t seen anyone else, but maybe I was wrong in doing so..

I think you are an extremely nice, kind, funny, compassionate, care-free, handsome person who obviously cares very much for his family and friends, that knows what he wants for his future, who can believe in some force higher than himself (quite humbling), and that wants a family someday. All these qualities I have been looking for in someone for so long, you are a very positive person, I would love to get to know you better!  I just wish you were more willing to open up, but it simply means you don’t really want to be with me or even want to integrate me in these interactions of your life.  I want to be included and include someone else in my life, clearly I have told my friends, coworkers, and family about you, but I am unsure if you have done the same.  I am done having members of the opposite sex just doing what they please and me allowing them to do so, I then become attached this idea that was never there in the first place.

I have tried multiple times to end this because I knew this would occur; maybe it’s just best we not see each other again.

-Me”

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One lined response goes to the man:

“Hey You.  I hear what you are saying. Give me a few days to think about it? But you know I’ll support whatever you feel like you need to do. Enjoy the snow.

-Mr. Margaritas”

Aka this relationship is at it’s end and I think I will stay away from the sauce and chemistry.com for a good month and a half folks.

Have A Good Valentines Day Week everyone!  I know I will especially with all these chocolate, flower, diamond commercials bombarding my retinas.